Wednesday, September 22, 2010

I want to pull my hair out

Justin has a new work scedule which means I am at home with the two babes from 11:00 am till 8:15pm.  These past 2 days have been the longest days of my life.  I don't know how I am going to get through this week.  I don't even know how I am going to get through tomorrow.  I am exhausted and very bitchy when Justin gets home.  I take a lot of my frustration out on him during the first 10-15 minutes he's home, and that sucks, for both of us.   But mostly him.  I don't know how moms with multiple kids do it.  I don't think I was cut out for this, being a mom of two under two during the hours of 11-8 and feeling completely alone, worn out, and just not me.  I have wanted to break down and cry multiple times during the day.  And it's only been two days.  Geez louise I am losing it.  I need some prayers and some peace.  

2 comments:

Kelly said...

I can totally sympathize. I have 2 as well My daughter is 3 and well Xander is just a little more then 3 weeks. My hubs works from 11p-7a so he comes home and goes right to sleep... SooOooo I have the kids all night by myself and then during the day while he sleeps. I know all about the frustration and the feeling like you are not cut out for it...

We are strong women :) Do you do nap or quiet time with your oldest? I have found that this is imperitive to survival :) Kat has 2 hours of quiet time a day where she either lays on the couch and watches movies or takes a nap... It helps.

I hope you feel better... remember they are only this little once :)

Jennifer said...

Kelly, goodness I don't know how you do it. Seriously I feel so defeated by the time my husband comes home, and I can't imagine him working all night and then coming home and sleeping while dealing with both little ones. I have tried to get the oldest one to nap with me, I have to make him lie down in the bed next to me just to get him to sleep, usually he doesn't want to nap when I do (when our 8 almost 9 week old is sleeping). Seems like he wants to nap when she is awake, and begs me to put her down and then starts crying because he is so tired. He's never been an independent kid, so getting him to spend any time just entertaining himself or even focusing on any one thing for longer than a few minutes is quite difficult. But I have to hand it to you because you're quite amazing for having to tackle both babes for such a long time.