(found on Pinterest, but wasn’t pinned to original source)I know this isn’t in my list of usual blog topics, but I’ve been thinking a lot about weight. My weight. I’ve struggled with my weight for as long as I remember. I was never as small as other girls. Never. Even in kindergarten I was taller and “thicker” than all of the boys and girls in my class. And at 5 years old, I knew that being bigger, taller, thicker, was not a good thing.
I’ve never felt comfortable in my own body. Never felt good enough, and never felt pretty enough. All because of being fat. I’ve cried many, many times over my weight. I’ve called myself horrible things (disgusting, loser, ugly, cow, whale, fat bitch) and what’s worse, I have made myself believe that I am every last one of those things. That deep down inside, I am ONLY those things.
I’ve been completely green with jealousy over every skinny, thin, and normal weight person I’ve ever seen. I’ve been hurt every time someone has made fun of someone because of their weight. I’ve wanted to go off on every woman who has ever complained about being 5 or 10 pounds overweight, or who has complained about having trouble finding clothes that fit because she’s too skinny.
I was searching for hairstyle posts last night and came across a blog I had never seen before. I ended up reading a blog post of hers last night that said she felt it was just as bad to call someone skinny as it was to call someone fat. “So, is calling someone skinny really acceptable? Or, do you agree with me that it's just as insensitive as calling someone fat?”
I’ve never been on that side of the spectrum, being too thin. So honestly, I don’t know how it feels having people walk up to you and say, “oh my gosh, you’re so skinny.” I can only DREAM that someone would one day walk up to me and say that.
BUT, I do know how it feels for people to make fun of you simply because you’re fat, or to tell you at the age of 10 that you shouldn’t eat that because you need to watch your weight, or to read a comment on a friend’s page saying all fat people should be banned from ever wearing jeggings. I have seen magazine after magazine post pictures of skinny girls, full body photos, but when there is a plus size girl or woman, they only post pictures of her face. I’ve heard guys talk about overweight girls like they were trash, scum, and reduce them down to animals they wouldn’t touch with a ten foot pole. Never have I heard a guy say he wouldn’t date, marry, or sleep with a girl because she was too skinny.
I know that everyone perceives things differently, one person’s feelings won’t be the same as someone else’s. I do know that. But it is really hard for me to… understand, or grasp, the idea that being called skinny is just as insensitive or offensive as calling someone fat. And I guess one of the main reasons I feel that way is because society approves of people being skinny, and they condemn people for being overweight. And most people use the word skinny to compliment someone. "girl, you look so great! So skinny!" You never hear of the word FAT being used to give someone a compliment. No one ever says, "Girl, you are looking good! Did you gain weight?!" or "Ooh she's so fat, I wanna look just like her!" I don’t know… heavens knows I would rather be on the complete opposite side of the weight spectrum, like my husband, who can literally eat 5 candy bars in one hour and still lose weight. I wish I could be like him, but I’m not. I won’t ever be like that either. And I don’t think I can really understand that being called skinny is just as hurtful as being called fat.
Anyway, I know this isn’t my usual blog post, but I would love to know what you think. I would definitely be open to hearing your opinions or experiences on this issue too. If you don’t feel comfortable leaving a comment you could email me too.